Monday, September 28, 2009

Another Monday

It's beautiful today after a rainy Sunday.

I got one of those emails yesterday asking me to make a wish and if I don't make it and forward the email a frog will hop out of my computer or some such catastrophe. I tried to make the wish but realized I couldn't think of anything to wish for other than to earn enough money to avoid financial disaster. Hmmmm, does that mean I'm content? Or does it mean I've run out of things to wish for. Or maybe it means that I'm totally selfish and focused only on things I might want instead of asking for others to get what they want.

Oh well, it's all just too heavy to think about.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

We meet our destiny on the road we take to forget it. -- Carl Jung

The Ordinary - a poem















I don't have to fly --
I can go slowly
About the business of living
An ordinary life.

I find myself sitting in the same position
For long moments at a time.
With my hand cupped over my mouth,
Shoulders tense --
Or hands clenched in my tight lap.

I wash the dishes.
Take a soapy brush to white shoes, dirty from wearing.
Then stand against the counter
Arms folded around my ribs;
Fear a wad in my chest.
I don't know what to do with my hands.

I carry laundry to the basement,
Hear voices calling from players in the park
A block away
While young men ride by with their children
on bicycles in the summer sun.

This is the beginning
Of an ordinary life.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Early September

The view in New Hampshire is pristine. My granddaughter's ninth birthday was lovely, although the four hour drive there and back was a drag.

It's a lazy Saturday for me. Catching up on internet reading and the news. September 11 passed with barely a thought from me. I'm glad I didn't watch the rerun on MSNBC. It is PTSD inducing, that's for sure.

I've been listening to (gasp) Nora Roberts J. D. Robb series, a fun fantasy series of slightly futuristic detective stories. No redeeming qualities whatsoever other than pure escape. Kind of nice for a change. Just hope my mind doesn't turn to veggie mush as a result.

I've been so fired up about the health care situation, the anti-Obama wing nut lunatic fringe, the pitiful state of the U.S. Congress that it's kind of nice to just let it all go.... and read the witty Jason Linkins on The Huffington Post.

Watched a couple of Moonlight videos this morning and they bring back that old heart aching sadness and longing. Sigh.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Today is Contentment


I only have one patient today and the rest of the day is free!